At the age of 13, I started taking pain pills every day and drinking occasionally. I maintained on the pain pills for eight years before I became a non-functioning addict. I got pregnant at 17 years old with my oldest daughter and then got pregnant again at age 20, again with a daughter. At age 21, I lost both of my girls due to my addiction and my poor choices. When I lost them, I really did not know how to fight to get them back. Getting clean and sober was not an option for me then, in my mind. I them added methamphetamine to my pill addiction. I spiraled down quickly. I got down to 98 pounds within a month of beginning to use methamphetamine. I lost everyone and everything that I loved.
I went on to have two more children, one at age 24 and the other at age 25. I could not stop doing drugs them either so I lost those two girls as well. I had gotten to the point where I could not get out of bed in the morning without taking at least ten pills. I had reached the point where I could not function without pain pills physically or mentally. At age 26, I got pregnant with my youngest daughter. I was able to keep her, but my addiction was extremely bad.
At age 27, my judge sent me to get help at a rehab in Bowling Green, Kentucky. I left that rehab and continued to get high. I was hiding from the police and overdosed at a friend’s house. In that moment, I prayed to God. I asked Him to save my life and told Him I would live for him. He did and I came through that.
I went to jail for the 10th time that year and was introduced to Sue Cline from the Hope Center for Women. I got an application, applied, and was accepted. I am a graduate now, but I still live at the Hope Center for Women. God’s grace and mercy saved my life, my kids’ lives, and has changed me tremendously. I now have my youngest daughter with me and I get to talk to and see my other kids. I have a full-time job and just purchased my first car.